Yup, it's true.......

Yup, it's true. I hate people. Hrm, "hate" is a strong word and I can hear my Oma telling me that I shouldn't use that word. So I'll change it to the fact that I strongly dislike people. The last few weeks of working by myself have proven to be quite challenging. BUT what I have learned over the last few weeks has been quite amazing.

#1) I strongly dislike people. I want to hit some of the people I deal with over the head and repeatedly tell them that THEY got themselves into this mess. No one else did, THEY did. Stop for the love of all that's holy, blaming other people for your mistakes!!!!! I can't talk too much about this because I'm referring to work and I don't want people to actually read this. Except for you people.

#2) I've spent the last X amount of years doing the part of the job that I love the most. Not dealing with people directly. However, I have to say that it's been kind of fun brokering with the public again. I've been doing this for 15 years but in the last few years, I haven't had to mingle with the public, just other brokers who submit deals to me directly or investors. So the past little while has sharpened my skills and I'm feeling pretty good about it all. I'm not sure which direction my company is going to go (if Dave will stay or go-possible move to the Island) but no matter what, I'll be fine. That was a comforting thing to realize.

#3) I really like weekends. However I've mostly just slept whenever I have a moment. But weekends actually mean something again.

#4) I don't think I'll ever have kids AND I'm ok with that. I'm reaching the "scary" age of whether or not I should start thinking about popping out children. But I'm not there. There's no clock inside of me ticking away, no voice going "you'll be 38 soon sweetie, might want to start thinking about it....." I went to my beautiful friend Heather's baby shower a few weeks back. I was the only one in the room that hadn't squished out a child (except for Heather of course, but she will soon!). I had a moment of OMG but then I stopped and realized that I was ok with that. I had no longing or envy pouring out of me. It was a neat thing to realize about myself and more importantly, be ok with. I told my mom which of course had a typical mom response "U r a little unusual. Ur heading into the Aunty Dorothy category." -tee hee, I liked it mom :)

My Aunty Dorothy never had children. Not sure if that was a choice or if it was too late for her (her husband has children from his first marriage). But I guess I am. I will be 38 soon. I don't have the healthiest of bodies so maybe my clock will run out. I have to admit that every once in awhile I think about what it would be like to hold my own baby, which lasts about 5 second of happiness, but then that baby suddenly turns to an adoptive child. I've always wanted to adopt a kid so maybe that's still my calling in life. Adopt little kiddies that want a home, stability, love, routine, camp, etc.

Wow, sorry. This blog suddenly turned into a journal entry. hahahahah

On that note, I have to go to bed. It's late and I have five mortgages to submit tomorrow as well as keep on top of the two signing at the lawyers. Night all!